Would you mind terribly
if I claimed you for me?
Ill lay here with you
for hours on days,
with bouncey balls
in abandoned halls
We'll be so happy
living life in a daze.
Late for practice
more often than not,
but full of bright smiles
and hugging a lot
We'd be such a trend
You and I 'til the end
So would you mind
if I called you mine?
Your kiss is as contagious
As the poison words dripping from your lips
sowing seeds of false hope
&& promises you'd never hope to keep
&& so miss Miasma
What could we hope to be?
I mean nothing to you
But you're so addicting to me
Your love is like a firefight
I know I should run
I know I'll get hurt
But its so entrancing
&& so miss Manslaughter
What could we hope to be?
I mean nothing to you
But you're so addicting to me
Your touch is like fire
Burning into my flesh
Your words are sharp as knives
Ripping into me.
&& so miss Masochism
What could we hope to be?
I mean nothing to you
&& you should mean n
i have no idea
i have no clue
i cant do it
not without you
my life is bland
my life is a bore
i cant deal with it
not anymore
i feel like i just need to get
away from it all
i cant find that relief
except on the heavnly divine
its all going black now
with the knife in my hands
i doubt you'll ever see
the blood on my hands
im tired of keeping
this down to earth viage for you
im not who you want me to be
and probably never will
nothing i do matters to you.
i dont have to listen to all this
condecending talk of what you think i should be like
im not you, i dont live like you
and overall i dont care about you
you havent seen all the shit ive had to go through
all the pain, all the tears, all the hardships
youve never been there for me
when i was depressed, suicidal
you only care about me when i can give you something
or can do something for your benifit
i hear you talking to your so called "friends"
talking about me behind my back
Now that you've come back by TheGreatHumongo, literature
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Now that you've come back
now that youve come back
into my life
ever since youve come back
into my life
im plagued with indecision
and i just dont know
if i can take it
again
i thought of you while you were away
everyday
saw you in my dreams
it didnt work out right
i was always thinking of you
the truth is
youve nevr really left
youve been in my life since that
one fateful day
when i made the worst mistake of my life
i still love
contradictory to what you might think
but its too late now
you dont love me anymore
you can have all of them
you had him
my friend turned public enemy number one
because i still love you
still y
the cut you left is deep
deeper than before
i have no reason to hide my depression
now
im picking up the knife
and gashing my hand
a small semblance
of how i feel
now
you tear at my heart
like i tear at my veins
what i feel
matters not
now
one look
in this book
would reveal
all the secrets
i wish to conseal
its all coming out now
as i pour my heart through this pen
never a secret
ever again
cause i miss you so much
i need you by my side
and i need your touch
in this book i confide
nowhere to run
nowhere to hide
all of my feelings
locked up inside
and im going insane
with so much pain
i could not begin to fathom a utopia
without you
but sometimes i feel dead to you
like im not even there
and the landscape is bare
and i just cant bear
life without you
and with how much i fret
i have but one regret
never getting to
ever kis
Ashes to ashes, Dust to dust by TheGreatHumongo, literature
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Ashes to ashes, Dust to dust
Ashes to ashes and
dust to dust.
Don't try to stop me 'cause,
my pain is a must.
Cut my name and
strip me from this land
It's all just one flick of the wrist
from the dagger in my hand.
'Un'Willingly Devoted Part I by TheGreatHumongo, literature
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'Un'Willingly Devoted Part I
There is a boy that I know, a boy with family problems. His parents are separated, and he lives with his mother and sister. However, the boy's parents do not care for the boy, and he is often tossed aside in favor of his sister. Formerly, the boy's greatest aspiration was to be loved by his parents, but over the years, the boy wishes only to be rid of their presence. His only consolation was his girlfriend, within whom he confided everything. She meant the world to him, and her family was the only real family he had ever known. He told her of his anxiety, of his pain, and of his hurt. But the girl felt that he was something she could j
I need not food
when I have your love filling my soul
I need not air
when I have your love filling my lungs
I need not blood
when I have your love flowing through my veins
waiting in the dark
hiding in the dark
hoping it will all go away
hiding from the pain
the agonies of life
hiding from the day-to-day
and i need you
to bring me out of hiding
to wash away all of my tears
ive cryed so many tears
seen so many fears
lived so many years
and with all the things ive been through
i know there is one thing that is true
and that one thing is that
i will always love you
ive decided i cant love
can show no affecion
cause im philophobic
but your breaking my habit
cause your so radiant
with your beautiful smile
and you shine so bright
i can see you for a mile
and i love the way you toss your hair
how the smell of you lingers in the air
and when i talk to you
i can barely get through
how much i love you
but youre with someone else
someone i know
someone who you care about
and you know it shows
so you are forbidden
for now at least
and ill stay philophobic
until you can show
that you dont love him
and you love me more
but until that day comes
ill stay philophobic
why must you hate me
try to make me be you
you think im a fool
why should i try to be like you
i follow my heart
not yours
you say im too different
shun me for who i am
but you cant change me
because im too stubborn
and i know someone out there
loves me for who i am
Now there's stillness in the eyes of the girl who you had to leave behind
With all her dreams that you dreamt along with her
She wants you to know that this won't ruin them
(not entirely anways)
She ask you to not remember her, but not to forget her entirely either
"We could of been something"
She screamed when they cut the line
"We could of been something" she still freins but, now only to herself just to make it through the nights
Replying it as a heavy chest falls deep like it does for one's true love
Finally falling asleep to her own voice; the lingering thought which won't subside
I promise you that tonight won't hold our fate
as lovers
or
as friends
I think . . .
We'll both be too high "on life," drunk off our problems and too content on making a conection, that despite all our defenses, we won't remember.
But maybe we can remember
or
Maybe we really can't.
(But we might.)
I'll probably write a fairy tale apon my arrivial home the next morning
It might not make media history,
but I'll applaud my lie still
On Monday morn
i have no idea
i have no clue
i cant do it
not without you
my life is bland
my life is a bore
i cant deal with it
not anymore
i feel like i just need to get
away from it all
i cant find that relief
except on the heavnly divine
its all going black now
with the knife in my hands
i doubt you'll ever see
the blood on my hands
Current Residence: Brianna's basement Skin of choice: Well, the one I was born in is nice, but I saw this great one on eBay... Favourite cartoon character: Lenore, Random Boy
Yes, its true.
I'm even halfway pleased with it.
There have been a lot of major changes recently, most not even with me, but with people that I care about. Its helped me think about a lot of things, so my mind is always buzzing, && I cant focus on anything.
I dont know if i think thats good or bad.
~josh!
I really should start updating this again. I havent had much inspiration lately. Hopefully some will start coming my way.
Because we need songs for the band. Anywho:
I met an amazing girl. seriously. hXc. Crayzee//Sexii//Cool.
Thats all.
~josh!